Sammy Update #4

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We got the biopsy results last night. His tumor is malignant. We're probably looking at something like three months, unless we choose to do chemo--in which case we might get five to six months but there are complications for that option as well and the nearest place to have it done is a three hour round-trip.

We haven't made a decision yet. For now, we're focusing on getting him recovered from his surgery and back to his normal old goofy self. We have a follow-up appointment with his surgeon next week Thursday in which we'll discuss more fully what possible next steps might be. 

Meanwhile, he is recovering well from his surgery. He's feeling good enough now that he's not keen on his restrictions, but he's still such a good boy. He could easily bulldoze his way past the chairs I've got set up keeping him limited to the family room but he doesn't. He lets me put his cone on with no argument whenever I'm not going to be right at his side to keep an eye on him. He's being okay about being on the leash to do what he needs to do outside even though he sees his tennis balls spotted about the backyard, beckoning him.

He does, however, whine pathetically if I leave the room for any length of time, which is creating some issues with my work life. I have a small laptop I can use for some things but it's difficult to do what I really need to be getting done this week without access to my full computer and large monitor in my office, so Sam and I will need to come to a compromise of some sort. He's also not keen on the heat pack I need to put on his wound four or five times a day. I put one together by stuffing one of my hand-dyed bamboo socks (the only one I have big enough) with rice, knotting the end of it, and microwaving it. I'm careful about the temperature, so I think for him it's mostly the feel of anything up against the incision. The way his wound is situated, I prop it on the floor against the incision while he's laying on his side, but I have to sit on the floor right next to him and hold him down (mostly by petting him but it's a "firm" pet) for 20 minutes to keep him from wiggling away from it. I'd like to say it's a bonding time but we're both tolerating it, at best. We'd both rather be playing with tennis balls, for sure. 

I won't be doing any more full updates like this, but you'll likely still be seeing him pop up on my feed on occasion. I'm anxious to get him well enough that I can take him for walks on the canal on my rest days from my 5k training. I miss having my buddy with me when I'm running the canal, but he wouldn't be up for the pace I'm currently at. But he needs to be able to greet his canal path fan base again.

 

Sammy Update #3

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Sammy's home! I got to pick him up this morning. I took a half day vacation today because I knew the settling-back-in process might take a bit.  

We're supposed to:

1) confine him to a small area of the house for two weeks to keep him from walking much. Since we have an open floor plan on the first floor, I'm having to get creative with chairs. At some point, he'll realize he can barrel right through them but for now he's still feeling run down enough he hasn't shown any interest in trying, as long as I stay within sight, if not right next to him. 

2) not let him do stairs. My home office is on the second floor and if I go up there he'll likely figure out the whole barricade thing to get up to me. So I'm trying to figure out how to work on the kitchen table without setting me back years ergonomically in terms of my neck and shoulder issues that I've been making headway on. 

3) keep him on a leash and minimize his times outside to just "taking care of business." Again, not much of a problem right now while he's still worn out but we finally have spring outside and pretty soon, that'll kick in for him. "There's tennis balls out there, Mom!" 

4) keep the "Elizabethan Collar" (such a high-brow term for the Cone of Shame!) on him whenever he can't be supervised. This will be more of an issue for Spencer (aka Princess Doggie) and the rest of us than Sam, I suspect. 

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He did eventually run Spencer to ground so they could say a proper hello.  

Right now, since I'm sitting right next to the Doofus writing this, I've taken it off him so he could get some water and just relax for awhile. We'll see how this goes.  

He's still not quite back to his old self but at least we have him home with us. He's getting lots of love from everyone except Spencer. Right now, she's keeping her distance a little because of the cone and, I suspect, she doesn't like all the vet smells on him. That'll wear off, I'm sure. Sam isn't poking at her too much--he's too sleepy.

We'll get results on the biopsy of the tumor sometime later this week. Fingers crossed... 

Sammy Update #2 and Fight the Funk Friday

I got word this afternoon from the surgeon that Sammy came through his surgery fine. His blood count was low before surgery (it was okay last night) so they had to give him a transfusion and once they got in there, it was clear the tumor had started bleeding again. That means its a very good thing we bumped up the surgery from next Tuesday, otherwise this would've been a very different weekend.

Sammy's last experience with the Cone of Shame. He tends to run into walls with it.

Sammy's last experience with the Cone of Shame. He tends to run into walls with it.

There were no obvious signs of malignancy yet--his liver looked good, which was their greatest concern--but we won't know for sure until the biopsy results are in next week. I'm allowing myself to be cautiously optimistic, though. They project that he'll be able to come home Monday, and yes, he'll definitely be wearing the Cone of Shame. He just loves that thing so much. 

Right now, I can breathe a sigh of relief that he's through the surgery and on the road to recovery...whatever that recovery may mean. Thanks again, all, for your well-wishes over the last 24 hours. I've really appreciated them and will be sure to share them all with Sammy once he's home.

I'm fighting the funk as best I can this week. I've had two "potato chip incidents" (one yesterday, one today) with all the stress with Sammy, but I've managed to stop myself before going too much out of control and have switched to tea just to keep my hands and mouth busy. 

I was down 8/10 of a pound this week. With last week's much smaller loss, the two weeks together mean I'm finally just about back to where I was right before I got sick and stopped being active for awhile. By all rights, that downward trend should now continue, potato chip incidents notwithstanding.

I had my first run back with my 5k training group Wednesday night. I've been training on my own to work my way back up from being sick, but the week before last it was bitter cold and/or pouring buckets both times we had our scheduled group runs and I didn't think it was the best idea to do that so soon after being sick. This Wednesday was in the 50s, beautifully sunny, and just a light breeze--perfect running weather. Wednesday was our first night at 2 minute walk/5 minute run intervals (for a total of about 45 minutes). My husband was out of town so I was on my own, but I decided that might make it easier for me to stay in the middle of the pack. However, somehow, I still ended up at the front of the pack as we all sorted ourselves out after doing our warm-up. That meant I really struggled with speed. The front of the pack is where the faster runners like to start out--so the fact I ended up with them meant my pacing was all off. I would keep thinking to myself, "Slow down! Slow down!" but then I'd see the runners in front and hear runners behind me and would naturally start speeding up again--meanwhile feeling like I was running slow, comparatively speaking. I did fine the first two intervals, but by the third one my lungs were filling up and I was starting to struggle.

Running on my own on the canal path, missing my Doofus in the process. Even if he were healthy, he's not in good enough post-winter shape to run with me at the distances I'm going. He'll be my "rest day" walking buddy instead.

Running on my own on the canal path, missing my Doofus in the process. Even if he were healthy, he's not in good enough post-winter shape to run with me at the distances I'm going. He'll be my "rest day" walking buddy instead.

Did I mention, by the way, that we're now suddenly starting allergy season? And I've been having to use an inhaler? When I was training on my own, I had one really, really, REALLY bad run where my lungs were aching and I felt like I had leaden legs slogging through mud by the second half of the run. I was beating myself up for being so out of shape until I was coughing all the way home and realized I felt like I did during my worst parts of allergy season when I need an inhaler. I did some reading up and picked up the tip that I should be using my inhaler before I run, not waiting until after. Go figure. I did that the next day and had a much better time of it.

Still, Wednesday night, I hit the inhaler a couple of times before and during running and I still couldn't knock it out. I ended up walking parts of each of the 5 minute run intervals for the rest of the run. I was frustrated with myself until we got back to the store and were doing our stretches--RunKeeper sent me a congratulatory badge for "fastest 5k ever!" No no no no! I'm probably the only one who ever thought getting "fastest" was a bad thing. I knew that meant my pace was off. I got home and looked at my stats on RunKeeper--sure enough, I was running at a pace that was a minute or two faster than my normal on-my-own runs. I'm not at the point where I need to be worrying about speed right now--I need to find a pace comfortable for me to be able to run the whole thing without killing myself. Which means slower. A lot slower than I was apparently running Wednesday.

Thursday was a rest day, and today may end up being one as I have some school stuff I need to knock out today and potentially a family thing tonight. Tomorrow morning we're back with the running group (and DH is with me this time), and we're actually going to be running the course of the 5k we're doing at the end of April. My strategy this time is to start out at the back of the pack. I'm going to let a whole lot of people start, and then find my niche in the crowd and do my best to stay there, even if it feels like I'm running slower than I'd naturally be inclined to run. Maybe that way I'll get through all those intervals without wanting to curl up on the side of the road and cry.

I refuse to give up. 

 

Sammy Update #1

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It's Thursday night and I ate too many potato chips when I got home from the animal hospital. Still fighting a little of that self-indulgent stress eating thing.

We've left Sammy at the hospital overnight and he'll be having surgery in the morning.  

The ultrasound didn't show any additional tumors, which is good although still inconclusive as any malignancy may just not be big enough yet to show up on an ultrasound. However, it did indicate that his splenic tumor has already bled twice. A third time would most likely be fatal (and, I imagine, given the progression, would happen within a couple of weeks). So we had some decisions to make.

Option 1: Have surgery and have them remove the spleen and biopsy the tumor to find out if its benign or malignant. If it's benign, great. We've solved the problem. If it's malignant, there's nothing to be done and he'd probably have about two months (four on the outside).

Option 2: Don't have surgery, assuming it's more likely malignant, and just bide our time until it either bleeds out again or metastasizes.  

We had them do a chest X-ray just to see if there was any obvious malignancy that wasn't covered by the ultrasound. Nope--everything was clear. His blood work is all great. So, we've opted for the surgery and we're praying the good news continues and he falls into the roughly 30% of cases in which its benign.  

He'll likely have surgery in the morning, and they'll keep him there for a few days of recovery, so we probably won't see him again until Monday. They made sure a few times that they informed us of the risks of anesthesiology and I just kept thinking, "At this point, this whole thing is a risk and that one is the least of my worries."  

We won't know the results of the biopsy for several days, so it's unlikely the surgery itself will give us a whole lot more information. I'll post another update tomorrow after we hear from the surgeon and I have any more to share.  

Thank you to all the #twilters on Twitter and Instagram who are sending the Doofus your good wishes--it means a lot! 

Thinkin' about It Thursday

This week, I'm thinking about... 

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The Doofus. 

I took him to the vet on Monday because he'd been off his food for a few days--a huge red flag for a Golden Retriever--moving slowly, and generally not being his usual goofy self. Since he'd had an episode a couple of weeks ago of vomiting and acting lethargic that cleared up after a couple of days of the "bland diet" (ground beef, rice, and cottage cheese mix), I began to think that this might be something more chronic than the usual Goofy-Dog-Ate-Something-He-Shouldn't.

The vet did an X-ray to check for blockages and found a tumor on his spleen. A big tumor. It's possible that it may have already ruptured once and sealed itself off, hence the previous vomiting. 

He's happy enough to be back on the bland diet again--as is Princess Doggie since I can't feed one something different than the other--and other than the fact that he's still moving a little more slowly than usual, he seems to be feeling okay. 

This afternoon he has an appointment for an ultrasound which may show if the tumor has metastasized, meaning it's malignant, meaning there's nothing more we can do. Or it may not show anything more than the X-ray did. Which means we'd then have to decide if we want them to do surgery next week. They can't just do a needle biopsy on this one--they'd have to actually open him up. Once they do, they can biopsy it to determine if its benign or malignant. If benign, they can remove the spleen and we're good to go for years. If malignant, still nothing to be done. 

I'm trying not to prematurely worry. Meanwhile, he's getting a little extra love these days.  

 

 

Wardrobe Wednesday

I've got two StitchFixes to report on--mine and my husband's, as they came within a few days of each other. Most of this will be mine, though, since I know the vast majority of my readers are women.

After the disappointment of the last StitchFix, I was trying to keep expectations low this time around. If I had one item I liked, I'd consider that a win. Well, this time, FIVE! Woot! I've asked if I could stick with the stylist who did this one now (Cori). She's done others that had items I liked. I didn't keep the card from the last box since I sent everything back, so it's possible she also did that one and it was just a one-off. In either case, once someone gets you right, it's worth staying with that same person because she can continue to get to know your likes and dislikes through all your feedback. 

I'd sent a list of the kinds of things I'd like to see in my next box, and she delivered in a major way--woo!

As my husband was out of town, I texted him pics of me wearing each of my items, so I'm going to use (with some fear and trembling) those photos here. Be nice. (!) I was having a bad hair day, the pics were all taken in my bathroom mirror so not the most attractive of backgrounds, and I don't really know how to model, despite my wealth of experience now!

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First up, the shoes. I was so excited to see a shoe bag in the box--this is the first time I've gotten shoes from StitchFix! These are a pair of the very soft, very flexible ballet flats that are majorly "on trend" right now. They're pretty much like wearing slippers--which means they'll be great for wearing for date nights and family events, but not for a lot of walking. I wore these all day in my home office and they were quite comfortable. I love the light blush color, too. I may wear them out this Friday night, depending on the weather, when we're getting together for my sister-in-law's birthday. 

 

I'd asked for floral print sleeveless tops I could dress up or dress down. I wear a lot of this kind of thing for work under cardigans, but they've got enough shoulder coverage that if I start overheating (ahem--women of a certain age) I can ditch the cardigan and still look mostly professional. 

Including this one, I now have three sleeveless off-white/cream tops, each with a floral print, but every one is distinctly different and/or a slightly different color scheme. I'm happy!

 

Utility jackets are all the thing for spring right now, although I've mostly been seeing them in olive. I'd asked for one because all of my spring jackets are either (1) really, really old and showing their age or (2) too big now, and look it. I have one fuschia trench coat, but nothing that was more appropriate for casual wear, so I asked for a utility jacket. 

I was so pleased to see she'd included one! And even better, it's not olive green! I could've made olive work but it's not my favorite. This one is much more "me," and I absolutely love the stripe detail. I'd unrolled the sleeves in this pic but you can see the snap on the elbow--you can roll the sleeves up and the fabric tab snap to hold them is the same stripe as the hood. It's absolutely adorbs! (And using that phrase isn't really "me," but hey, it works.) 

There's a drawstring waist which means it fits me now but will also fit me later, and it's got great pockets. The fabric has a little stretch to it so it's super-comfortable. Love, love, love. Even though it's barely spring temps out there right now, I'm going to wear it anyway!

 

I've never been much of a dress person--I have usually done separates as I like to have options of mixing and matching. However, I've begun to buy into the idea that sometimes a dress is just a whole lot easier--throw on one garment, shoes, a necklace, and you're done. No having to figure out "an outfit." So I asked for dresses, and pinned a bunch of wrap and fit-and-flare styles to my Pinterest board since those work best for my body shape. Once again, Cori delivered!

This looks better on me than this angle might suggest--sorry about that. It fits absolutely perfectly, and the fabric is wonderfully comfortable and stretchy, but not clingy. It'll pack beautifully for my trip, too. I love that the v-neck isn't too low, which can often be an issue, and I also love that it's long sleeved but doesn't look heavy. Perfect for cold conference rooms. This is a great dress for work or for dinners out, but I can also throw a denim jacket and flats on and go sight-seeing or to spring festivals. Very versatile. The color is also pretty transitional--it's light enough for spring but the sage green will also make it work into early fall, especially if I wear cardigans and tights. Bingo. 

 

Ignore that I look really unhappy in this photo--I was concentrating on how to hold the dang phone for the picture.

Two dresses--woo woo! I love this dress, and it was a favorite for my husband, too. It's a ponte knit so, again, it'll travel well and it's got nice structure but is really, really comfortable. The "fit-and-flare" style looks more youthful without looking girlie. (As my daughter said to me once, "You look youthful in that...but in a good way!")

Again, another transitional piece: Because of the cap sleeves, I can wear it in warmer weather but because of the color, I can throw a cardigan or jacket over the top and wear it in the fall. It's modern, and modest enough for work while still fun to wear for vacation with a great necklace and shoes. This one has a little bit more of a formal feel to it than the other one so I don't see myself "dressing it down" to wear casually, but it'll get a lot of wear otherwise.  

So, yay! I've now updated my wishlist for my next StitchFix--there are still a couple of things I'd love to have for vacation (and future travel). I've also changed my delivery date to much earlier in the month--for a few reasons--so I will be getting my next box in just a couple of weeks. Stay posted.

About the shoe reference above: I'm now working with Amber of Trunk Club on shoes. She did such a fantastic job with the sandals I got last time that I just asked her to find me great walking shoes for my vacation. I sent her a laundry list of requirements, so we'll see what happens! Stay tuned (and I'll include more background as to why I'm still in need of shoes despite a bunch of twitter posts since last summer about shoes I've bought, LOL). 

Now for my husband's StitchFix. I actually had a longer post about this drafted but it never got finished or posted, so now you're getting the abbreviated version. In a nutshell: I really didn't think he was going to want any of the items in the box but he ended up keeping them all. They all looked great on him but he can be very limited-in-his-thoughts about what he wears. He's really trying to break out of his own style rut and, frankly, me working on my wardrobe has made him start looking at his a little differently too, tee hee. Here's a gallery of the clothes he's now adding to his closet. One note: The burgundy corduroys are the biggest "envelope-pusher," not at all like anything he'd normally pick out for himself (nor I for him as neither of us is big on corduroy). But they looked fantastic on him, so he decided he'd bring them on vacation where no one knows him to know he normally doesn't wear stuff like that, and see how it goes. 

The StitchFix and TrunkClub links in this post are my referral links, so thank you if you use them! 

Making It Monday

Got this done last week. My goal was four in March, and I got four done in March--and we still have a week left! I'm working on #5. (And yes, I'll press all of these eventually. I just get too excited to wait until I've done that to take my picture.) Just realized that the second bat doesn't have claws on his banner-holding side. I'll have to quickly add those. Things you don't see until you're looking at the picture!

 

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Fight the Funk Friday

Well, hip, hip, hooray--I'm finally back at it again!

I'm 95% over this dang cold. I can still get coughing when I'm laying down in bed at night, and I'm still pretty snuffly when I wake up in the morning, and talking for prolonged periods of time can still be a bit of a problem...

...but really, I'm 95% over it!

I've been back to my 5k training since last week. I took the first few sessions pretty easy, working my way back up to the interval timing we're supposed to be using this week. I'm now at the right timing, but I'm keeping it slower than I had in the past (see yesterday's post). The nod to me still being in recovery is that I have yet to run outside again. It's still been pretty dang cold out there and I didn't want to risk irritating my lungs by inhaling all that frigid air for 45 minutes straight. So, if the weather prediction stays as it is right now (Saturday is supposed to be in the high 30s, which is balmy compared to what its been), tomorrow morning will be my first time back running with the group. Since I've only been doing treadmill running which is significantly easier than running outside, I still have some small concern about being able to keep up with the pack. But I think I'll do okay. 

I also finally got back to a session with my trainer again yesterday. She *sorta* took it a little easy on me, kinda. She started out saying that we'd worry more about having an FPR rather than a WPR--in other words, a "Form Personal Record" rather than a "Weight Personal Record." She had me do some work with kettlebells that, although it seems like mostly arm work, really gets your entire body. When we were done and I was walking towards the locker room, I realized my stride had changed because I was trying to get my land-legs under me again. She gave me permission to email her and cuss her out on Saturday when all my muscles seize up. It's always the second day after a workout, not the first, that's the worst. But whining aside, it really did feel good to be back at it. Even if I did bruise my shoulders with the kettlebells a couple of times--I did at least manage not to knock myself unconscious (although it was close once!). 

I was doing the "clean" part of this--which is lifting and flipping the weight around with your wrist--and squat, but not the press. And no, my kettlebell wasn't quite that big. Ahem. Or even close. I also did swings and something else that I can't remember what she called it but we renamed it the "lawnmower" as I was lifting and pulling the kettlebell back like I was starting a lawnmower with a pullcord. It was a fun set, but hard work.

As far as Weight Watchers is concerned, I managed to lose a whopping 2/10 of a pound this week. And yes, that DOES count. I'm pleased that I was able to stop the upward trajectory that my two-weeks of sick had put me on, so now we're turning the ship around. I've got another major milestone I'd really like to make before Easter. Nothing special happening at Easter--it's just a convenient time-marker for me.

I'm trying to get myself moving more during the day but I keep forgetting. That's where I really miss my FitBit--the Apple Watch movement alarm is way too easy to miss. I'm working on making mental connections between actions, such as "turn on electric kettle to heat water up for tea, pace the first floor while tea is heating," and so forth. That at least gets me moving around a little more than usual. 

Despite the weather of late, we are starting to see the sun more frequently. So I know spring is on its way!

By the way, a couple of you have let me know that following my story is inspiring you to take some steps (so to speak) towards working on your own health. I'm thrilled! I can't tell you what that means to me to hear. I hope you're finding motivation in my less-than-perfection because that's what makes it all work.

Photo by Eric Fleming. Used by permission, Creative Commons.org

Photo by Eric Fleming. Used by permission, Creative Commons.org

As they often say, no toddler learning to walk ever took their first fall, then threw up their hands and said, "That's it. Obviously I'm a failure and can't do this, so why even bother?" Nope. They may cry a little bit, but sometimes they giggle. Most importantly, they keep trying. 

You go. You can do this. I know you can.

Thinkin' about It Thursday

This week, I'm thinking...

  • that I really am just so done with snow and cold (Unlike Frances, I do occasionally complain about the weather.)
  • that even the dogs were unsure about the last one
    • especially when it started thawing
    • and got a hard crust on top
    • but still had a soft, squishy middle
    • and they kept falling through
    • but that didn't stop them from trying to chase squirrels
 
  • how a treadmill in the gym is an okay option when it's still too cold to run outside lest I irritate my barely-recovered lungs
    • but it's a little boring
    • even when I'm running away from zombies
    • so I'm looking forward to slightly-warmer-than-freezing-temperatures so I can run outside again with the 5k program gang
  • that working my way back up from where I was before the Two Week Nastiness is a little frustrating
  • how I need to keep reminding myself to take it slow
  • how, on the other hand, I may be finding a more comfortable pace
  • that I'm not out to win medals or break speed records
  • how I really just want to get to the point where I can run 5k continuously with no walking
  • how that means keeping it slow for now is probably smarter anyway
    • but I refuse to call the Two Week Nastiness a "blessing in disguise"
    • unless you count DH saying "bless you" when I sneezed
    • but that wasn't really in disguise
    • so nope, doesn't count
    • that I'm getting better about doing embroidery while I'm watching TV
    • how it's nice to finally be making a little progress 
    • that maybe I'll actually be done with the Halloween BOM in time for Halloween this year
      • but let's not get ahead ourselves
      • this is me we're talking about, after all

    Wardrobe Wednesday

    Really. The alliteration. I'm killing myself here.

    Just a brief post about my ongoing work on my wardrobe. Just in case anyone finds it useful. 

    I've decided that capsule wardrobes can err on the side of dull. Or that I need a lot more variety than I thought I did. Really, probably a dash of both.

    I can see the use of a capsule wardrobe. Getting 30-plus outfits out of seven garments (or whatever) sure is a great way to save money. And I can certainly see the use for travel. I've looked at a ton of capsule wardrobes on Pinterest and in blogs (The Vivienne Files is an excellent resource for them) and have gotten some good ideas for how to organize my own shopping lists.

    Lots o' color. White, yellow, mint green/turquoise (and one remaining dark green that I'm not putting away until the snow melts), purple, fuschia, coral, navy, gray, black...

    Lots o' color. White, yellow, mint green/turquoise (and one remaining dark green that I'm not putting away until the snow melts), purple, fuschia, coral, navy, gray, black...

    Unfortunately, most capsule wardrobes are created based on severely limiting your color options or going all-neutral. And I really like color.

    A lot of color.

    And I really like options.

    A lot of options.

    I suppose I should've seen that coming. I've told my husband a number of times that I want our front garden to be "a riot of color," as opposed to the bank of solid color that he envisions (we debate which would be more striking). I like using a lot of colors in my quilts--I'm not an "all solids" quilt person nor, particularly, a modern quilter with lots of white (or gray) space and just a couple of colors sparingly placed. I can appreciate those quilts when other people make them--I've seen lots of them I really like. I just don't want to make them myself. 

    A riot of color. In my closet. That's my jam.

    Look at that. Finally some light and color amidst all my dark wash jeans and black dress pants! And a touch of Lularoe on the side...

    Look at that. Finally some light and color amidst all my dark wash jeans and black dress pants! And a touch of Lularoe on the side...

    So now I've started to think in terms of "capsules within my wardrobe" rather than "a capsule wardrobe." Capsules can be very helpful when you're shopping, as you can more easily think through whether a new item will be able to fit into a multitude of outfits with what you already own. And you can identify gaps more easily. It wasn't until I started putting my individual clothing items into capsules using templates from Vivienne Files and Inside Out Blog (see this post) that I was able to identify that I had no light bottoms or light shoes whatsoever, which is a bit of a problem going into spring and summer. I've since rectified that.

    Plus, of course, there's the packing thing. If I'm only doing a weekend, sure--I can limit my colors. But if I'm at a week-long event, I sure as heck don't want to be wearing combinations of the same two or three colors every single day. I'd go insane. I can limit myself to a certain extent, of course, but I like to look different every day, not just a variation on a theme. 

    All of this is to say, of course, that there's no real right or wrong, or hard-and-fast rules, about style. Do what works for you. I'm organizing my Stylebook app "looks" (outfits) into capsules by color combinations so that I know what I've got. I may also do a few that are "Weekend away" or "Work Week" that are just ideas of things I could pack that would give me the most options without splitting the seams on my suitcase. Really, it's all in the planning. 

    Do you have a capsule wardrobe? What do you think about them? What are your personal pros and cons?

    (By the way, I've got Amber, my Trunk Club stylist, working on sunglasses for me. I have difficulty finding sunglasses that work with my face shape and are comfortable to wear for hours on end. Those stupid little angled mirrors that are usually all you get in sunglass displays don't help. So the idea of her sending me several options to try in the comfort of my own home, where I can actually see what I'm doing and maybe even take them out for a "test drive" --ar ar ar--to see if they'll give me a headache after ten minutes is hugely appealing. I'll keep you posted!)

    Tea Tuesday (an OT post)

    So, perhaps I've taken the whole alliterative title thing a little too far...

    I'm pleased to say that over the weekend I finally turned a corner on the cold thing. Not quite ready to say it's completely gone as the cough lingers on a bit, but it no longer directly affects my day-to-day so it's good. I'm back to my 5k training, which feels great, and I'll be able to pick things back up with my strength trainer at our appointment later this week. I knocked out a paper this weekend and am all caught up on my school reading. It's a nice recovery after the mayhem of the earlier part of this month!

    Meanwhile, I have a recommendation for you. I was drinking gallons of tea over the couple of weeks I was sick. My husband, daughter, and I are all big tea drinkers, although my husband only has a limited number of flavors he likes (Earl Grey, Moroccan Mint, and the occasional green tea--though he mostly drinks plain hot water which we jokingly refer to as "white tea"). My daughter and I are the more adventuresome types. When she was still living at home we had difficulty getting all our varieties to fit on the tea shelf. 

    I was recently contacted by Andy Hayes, founder of Plum Deluxe teas in Portland, Oregon. He noted how often I referred to tea on my blog and asked if he could send me some samples. As I coughed my way through my email, I thought, "Sure, why not?" He asked me what kind of tea I was interested in and I let him know some of my basic likes and dislikes, and just a few days later I got Happy Mail including three samples of some of their more popular teas.

    Let's start with the general overview: Plum Deluxe teas are fair trade and organic. I've been in search of a good fair trade coffee and have yet to find one I like. I'm pleased to say that the same is not true for these teas: These are fantastic! They're also blended by hand when they're ordered, so they're not shipped from some big production house and sitting in bags on shelves for years until they make it to you. They have a great blog covering all sorts of topics, and a newsletter that's got interesting tidbits, life balance encouragement, recipes, and ideas for entertaining. Additionally, Plum Deluxe has a philanthropy fund that it uses to support worthy causes. They list several of the things they've supported in the past on their website. As you can guess, that was a major plus for me before I'd even tasted the teas!

    So...let's get on to the teas, shall we?

    The three samples he sent were the Oregon Breakfast Black Tea, Refreshing "After Dinner" Mint Tea, and Easy to Be Herbal Tea. 

    Oregon Breakfast Black Tea--photo from plumdeluxe.com. 

    Oregon Breakfast Black Tea--photo from plumdeluxe.com

    Let's start with the Oregon Breakfast Black Tea. In Andy's email, he said this was the most popular of their teas among coffee drinkers. Whether it's because I'm a coffee drinker or not, I could probably just say "yum!" and end my review there. But you know me better than that.

    My daughter happened to be crashing at our house overnight the day I got these samples. She was standing with me at the kitchen counter when I opened each bag, so we were each taking deep inhales from the bags. (That's not illegal. Really.) When we sniffed this one, we looked at each other, eyes wide. "Holy cow," I said, or something along those lines (!). "This is amazing!" It's deep and rich but not at all bitter, which a lot of "teas for coffee drinkers" can be. 

    It's a black tea with other additions, such as a hint of orange and hazelnut. You can smell the hazelnut more strongly than you can taste it, which is exactly what I like. I don't like an overpowering hazelnut flavor--I like it to float underneath whatever it's flavoring, and with this tea, that's exactly what happens. And the orange doesn't taste like orange--it's more of a bright note to balance out the black tea and the nuttier hazelnut. All in all, a fantastic blend.

    I'm not inclined to give up coffee, but I do find myself finishing my coffee faster in the morning so I can still get in a cup or two of the Oregon Breakfast tea before noon (my cut-off time for caffeine lest I not sleep at night). 

     
    After Dinner Mint Tea--photo from plumdeluxe.com. 

    After Dinner Mint Tea--photo from plumdeluxe.com

    Plum Deluxe's Refreshing "After Dinner" Mint tea is a blend of peppermint and spearmint, with a few other herbs added in to give it some complexity.

    I'm a mint tea connoisseur at this point. Mint is my go-to flavor, and I have at least three different versions in my tea cupboard. In this case, I liked the complexity of the "After Dinner" Mint tea but I could've used a little stronger mint flavor. Now, mind you, I'm pretty picky about my mint tea. I've had mint teas that tasted like I was drinking liquified toothpaste and almost felt like they were burning the tastebuds right off my tongue; I've had others that felt like hot water with a mint leaf barely dipped in and then thrown away. This one was a little on the quiet side of middle; many folks would probably like it, but for me it could have used a more obvious mint kick to it. I've taken to doubling the suggested amount of tea for one cup and steeping it longer than recommended to boost the mint flavor closer to what I like. That being said, I don't mind that this one was a little less of a big deal for me because I so thoroughly enjoyed the other two. 

     
    Tea Subscription option--photo from plumdeluxe.com. 

    Tea Subscription option--photo from plumdeluxe.com

    The third sample, and my other favorite of the three, is Easy to Be Herbal Tea. This one is fascinating. It's also not a super-strong flavor but it's got a lot going on. I think if any of the individual flavors were any stronger, it would be less enjoyable. In the few days since I've gotten these samples, I've fallen into the habit of having the Oregon Breakfast tea when I'm done with my coffee in the morning and then switching to the Easy to Be herbal tea in the afternoon. Easy to Be has a mix of blueberries, raspberry leaves, cranberries, and lots of other good stuff, but it doesn't come out as "fruity." There's a hint of fruit aftertaste to it, but it's not overpowering. I have some other fruit teas, unsweetened, that still taste a little like I'm drinking hot Kool-Aid. There's a time and a place but, generally, I like things a little more subtle (other than my mint, of course). And, again, that smell! I have my sample bags sitting out on my counter and it isn't unusual for me to pull one of them open, take a deep whiff, and close it up again. 

    I can see making iced tea out of this one in the summer. Tasty. Unfortunately, you can't just buy this one--it's only available to the subscription members

    After I'd had two or three cups of each of the samples, I went on the website and bought a few more. I'll be getting the House Blend Black Tea ("Creamy Vanilla English Breakfast") and Portland Rose City Chai, plus a "Blender's Choice," which means they get to send me whatever they want. It'll be a fun adventure! There are a ton of other very tasty options on their site I'll have to work my way through. They have a subscription club which I may do at some point, but at the moment I'm being very cognizant of my already-overflowing tea cupboard. I need to throw a few more tea parties!

    So, thank you, Andy, for the free samples. I enjoyed the experience and look forward to enjoying more of your teas in the future!

    (I'm not being compensated for this post, beyond the three free samples I got to begin with. And the words are all mine. I just love tea and am happy to spread the word about a great fair trade product!)

     

     

     

    Fight the Funk Friday

    I really, really need to fight the funk this week. Between still being sick, piles of snow outside my window, and having another slight weight gain because I haven't been able to be active at all for nearly two weeks, I've just been feeling frustrated and cranky. Normally I have a really great attitude about my weight loss journey but when I got on the scale this week I just got royally p.o.'d. So I allowed myself a few minutes to wallow in self-pity, then looked up some motivational quotes (sometimes they do help even if they're a little hokey), and tried to get my head back in a good place. This blog post is "Preaching to Myself," and hoping that maybe my readers will find a little inspiration and motivation in it for themselves.

    I do view it as a sign of how far I've come in general that when I was watching an episode of Inspector Lewis (I found a new season on Amazon Prime--woo!) a couple of days ago, one of the characters was running and my instant thought was, "I really wish I could get back to that!" I could feel my body get a little rush of adrenaline just at the thought of running again. It didn't last long, and I started coughing again soon after, but the thought was there. Six months ago, I wouldn't have had that same reaction. So even if my body isn't currently up for, the muscle memory is still lurking around the edges. 

     

    Still n' all, I know part of the weight gain is that I've been slacking in paying attention to portion sizes. Not much weighing and measuring going on lately, so I need to get back to that. 

    I'm not beating myself up. I'm still fitting into all of my new clothes in my new size. I can still see the difference in the mirror compared to where I was. Although at the moment I'm not feeling the zing of energy and the improvement in strength, I had been before and I know it'll come back. I know my current, momentary frustration and depression has everything to do with the weather and my physical health and the fact that I've not been active, and nothing to do with reality. I know all that. I've just got to get healthy again to feel it.

     
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    I'm still in the habit of writing down one thing (health-related) that I'm proud of myself for doing every day, and one "why," just to try to keep myself focused. It's been hard, though, during this two weeks of sick. What is there to be proud of about "sat on my butt most of the day" other than "managed not to eat my way through the bag of potato chips?" (Okay, so that did make it onto my list of "proud" one day--I'll take it where I can get it.) But reminding myself of my "why," even if I'm starting to repeat myself from when I first started doing that a couple of months ago, is very helpful. And keeps me from diving into potato chips.

     

    I've had to cancel the last two weeks' strength training appointments but I have every intention of making it next week, even if it's a light session. I've not been running at all since Saturday the 4th, but I did touch base with our NoBo program coach this week and got her advice about how to slowly ease my way back in. I'm not going to run outside until next week, or until it warms up some, as that will just aggravate the cough. But I'm going to do some light, low-key treadmill work this weekend, and hopefully be back with the NoBo group runs by next Wednesday. I do miss them--they're fun.

     

    So. Life happens. This whole "getting healthy" thing won't be a straight road--I knew that from the outset. And I guess I'm fortunate to be six months in before hitting my first big real hitch. Enough habits are ingrained now that I am in a better mental place and not inclined to just throw up my hands and say, "This will never work," as I have sometimes in the past. 

    I'm staying positive. Really. It was a momentary mental tantrum that, by the time you're reading this, I'll already be over. I do feel an ever-so-slight improvement in the cold over the last couple of days so I have hope. I faced the music and went to my WW meeting and weigh-in even though I knew I'd be up. I know, without a doubt, that's when I most need those meetings. Skipping a meeting because I won't like what I see on the scale is the first step down a slippery slope to quitting altogether. I'm. Not. Quitting.

    I've got this.

    Off-Topic Tuesday--Word of the Year

    I decided a few weeks ago that my former word of the year, "Balance," has run its course for the time being. It's actually been my WOTY for a couple of years because I really, really had to work on it. But I'm in a pretty good place now. I was thinking one afternoon about how that word no longer called to me the way it had and whether or not that meant it was time for a change, when another word popped into mind and just wouldn't go away. After a couple of days letting it mull in the back of my brain, I've decided that--despite it being a couple of months into 2017 and therefore an odd time to be setting a Word of the Year--I'm now going to use a new word.

    Fun.

    I've generally always managed to keep fun in my life but I've realized lately that, as part of finding balance, I've also been naturally leaning towards having more fun. Sometimes "fun" is something big, like signing up for the Color Run and DirtyGirl Mud Run (see Friday's post) or participating on a whim in a fashion show (see Saturday's post). But most times it's the little things that entertain me. 

    For example, when I joined the Instant Pot community on Facebook (for those of us who are fans of our electric pressure cooker) I noticed that there was a trend of IP users to get custom made vinyl decals for their IPs. Yeah, it's a thing. IP owners are a bit overly emotionally-invested in their IPs, perhaps.

    Anyway, after seeing a bunch of different decals pictured, I finally followed the links one afternoon and my IP has now been duly decorated.

    Work at it--you'll figure it out. Or, at least, if you're a Tolkien fan, you will. (That's a hint.)

    (Want one of your own? It's from EllieCanary on Etsy. She's got a ton of options.)

     

    Along the same lines, my bullet journal is in a Leuchtthurm 1917 notebook, which has several lovely colors. I plan on working my way through most of the colors over my bujo lifespan but (for those who know me, they'd say "of course") I had to start with the fuschia one. I love it. Still n' all, when I saw decals on the bullet journal Facebook group I'm in--those FB groups can get you into trouble!--I ended up ordering a custom-made one with one of my currently-favorite protest phrases.

    One could, I suppose, dilute the message by saying, "she persisted in getting her tasks done," but that's not how I mean it.

    'Nuff said.

    Kimberly at Sublime Reflection has a ton of resources and all around good stuff on her website. She also has vinyl decals with various sayings along with the ability to have something custom made. I sent her my wording, my choice of fonts from her options, as well as how I wanted it laid out (which words smaller and bigger, directionality, etc) and it's absolutely perfect. It was easy to apply and I just love the graphic boldness of it. It makes me smile every time I see it.

    I already plan on having a different word or saying every time I start with a new bujo notebook. In fact, the next one might just be my word of the year--great way to remember, it, right?

    The other thing that's making me giggle these days is Mickey on my Apple Watch. When you tap him, he tells you what time it is. And sometimes giggles. Or calls you "pal." I grin every time. It never gets old. 

    What little things make you chuckle every time? How are you having fun every day? 

    Making It Monday

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    Thanks to a couple of sick days and a major power outage in the same week, Block 5 is now done.

    This one went really smoothly. The only issue was that one of the third little kitty's french-knot eyeballs started hanging on by a thread as I stitched the rest of the block. Although that has an appropriately-Halloween-y feel to it, it was a bit more gruesome than this project requires.

    So I had to stab him right through the middle of his eye with a sharp needle to tack it back down again.

    Gruesome.

    Me? A Fashion Model? Pshaw.

    Well, it happened!

    A few weeks ago I was shopping in Christopher & Banks--one of my favorite places for the basics/layering pieces in my wardrobe--and as I was checking out, the clerk asked me if I'd be interested in volunteering to be a model in their fashion show. They throw out an open invitation to any customers to join in the fun. I was sort of surprised to hear myself immediately saying, "Sure! That sounds like a hoot!" A bit out of my comfort zone--but it really did sound like fun so, why not? (Of course, I had no voice when I woke up this morning--this cold is a "symptom of the day" type and always keeps me guessing what's going to happen next--so I was a bit squeaky when I was meeting all the other models, but they forgave me. Since I tend not to talk much in those situations anyway, it worked out okay.)

    You get to choose what outfit you want to model ahead of time; they hold onto it in the store for you to change into the morning of the show. Models get 40% off anything you buy the day of the fashion show, including sale items. Wow! I knew I wanted a pair of light dress pants in my wardrobe, and I'm a sucker for a cardigan, so that's the outfit I chose to model, knowing ahead of time there's no doubt I'd be buying it. I already owned the shell I wore under the cardigan but they still provided one from the store so I wouldn't have to remember to bring it from home. I also found a necklace that worked with the outfit--it was on clearance so I decided that would come with me too. The shoes I wore are the pair I just got from the Trunk Club shipment last week. I could hear some approving comments about the shoes as I walked by the (very small) audience--they're definitely a winner.

    Before the show began, I was changing into my outfit in the back room with the other models and they told me I actually got to model two outfits. So I quickly ran back out into the store and put together a second outfit: colored jeans that are amazingly comfortable, a tunic blouse, a white peplum jacket, and a great scarf. I loved it, plus all the other models (and my husband) thought it was a winner too, so I ended up getting both outfits.  Lots of great pieces for my May vacation to mix and match (with other stuff I already own too), as well as some work stuff I have at the end of May. More wins!

    That's really why they do this, of course: we models were all shopping off each other. I and another woman both modeled the same white jacket and we had a Great Swap going on in the back room over which size fit who better as there were limited sizes available in the store. We both ended up happy. Several women went back to find pieces that one of the other models had worn and bought those as well. Other than the few friends/family members that had come, there was a small handful of customers in the store so we did get a little bit of an audience. But mostly, I just had a great time with the other models and bagged some great clothes at a significant discount.  

    All in all--it was an absolute hoot! I'd have to say I'll probably do it again if I have the opportunity!

    Fight the Funk Friday

    Well, the first news is, we have power!

    For those of you just coming into my blog for today's post, our area was one of those affected by the terrible windstorms mid-week. My house lost power early Wednesday afternoon. We were among the fortunate ones, though, who had ours restored late last night (Thursday). There are still about 80,000 people in the area without power even as I'm writing this. I'm sending them warm and electrified thoughts!

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    It certainly could've been worse. My biggest problem was that I was already down with a cold and my symptoms were exacerbated by sleeping in a house with no heat on (despite piles n' piles of quilts). I dragged my sorry butt out of the house for most of yesterday afternoon and evening just to stay warm and to recharge all my electronics. I was thrilled that our power came back on just in time to go to bed last night--with the heat on. I still slept under the piles n' piles of quilts just to make sure. I woke up feeling terrible this morning (probably because I was out and about so much yesterday) but as I've been quietly working at my desk this morning--and taking drugs--and pounding the water--I'm feeling somewhat improved now at lunchtime.

    I haven't done my 5k training--or anything, for that matter--since Saturday. I'm not planning on doing tomorrow's group run as it's supposed to be bitterly cold out again and the run is scheduled for an area park on the opposite side of town. I'm apprehensive I'd get halfway into the run and have to cry "uncle," and be out in the middle of nowhere. So I'll do tomorrow's homework but I'll do it on a treadmill inside and at my own speed, not trying to overdo anything as I'm really still in recovery here. I'm just anxious to get back into the habit of activity, even if I'm still not quite back to my previous levels.

    So, this week's "Fight the Funk" doesn't have much in the way of healthy living to report. Instead, I thought I'd report on my plans for the future. Suddenly I've gone from someone who's never done a 5k to someone who is now signed up for four of them! 

    5k Number One: I did Zombies Run Virtual Race last year. How could I not? It's still my favorite running app and, in fact, when I started going back to the gym this fall I went back to Season 1 and started over again. The Virtual Race is a 5k you do any time you want, any way you want, but by signing up you can be part of the "Rofflenet" (you need to know the story in app) and be on leader boards and all that. I'm not into the leader board thing, but I like the trappings. Last year, I did it on the elliptical and I only bought the starter pack--I got the medal and the number sign for my shirt but I didn't wear it when I did my virtual race (you can tweet pics of yourself with it on as part of the fun). This year, I upped my game and got the pack that included a running shirt--the pack contents are pictured at left. It's a nice shirt! I do plan on wearing the shirt when I do my virtual 5k, and I also plan on really doing a 5k, although I don't know yet if I'll do it outside or in--depends on the day I do it, mostly. The dates of the Virtual Race are April 7-18 (you do it anytime during that span you choose), which is close enough to the graduation 5k I'm working towards that I should be actually going that distance by then. You can still sign up if it appeals to you!

    5k Number Two: The "graduation" 5k that my running club is working towards is the Wegmans Family 5K on Sunday, April 30. We'll be able to run the course with our club once or twice before the actual event so I'm not particularly worried about completing it. Fleet Feet Sports NoBoundaries 5k program--the one my husband and I are doing--really does everything they can to help you be successful. My only problem is I'm double-booked. I have a speaking engagement that same weekend so I'll be going right from training on Saturday and the 5k on Sunday to having to be showered, professionally dressed, and "on" an hour later both days, LOL. We'll see how that goes! (I suspect I'll sleep heavily by Sunday night!)

    5k Number Three: The Color Run. I'm SO FREAKING EXCITED! This is the 5k that even got me wanting to do a 5k in the first place! The first two times I tried to train for it myself, I developed knee issues and couldn't do it. That's why I joined the Fleet Feet program--I want to make sure I'm doing everything the best way possible to stay injury-free. So far (colds notwithstanding) so good! This one is on Saturday, May 20th, and my husband and I leave for our 30th anniversary vacation on Sunday, May 21st. The timing couldn't have been better. I've got some family members doing this one with me, I think, including my husband. He's not as into the whole "having people throw dye on you" thing as I am, but he's a supportive guy and will be my running buddy. And they apparently have foam "clouds" you run through now too! Woo!

    5k Number Four: DirtyGirl Mud Run. This one is a 5k through an obstacle course. In mud. Who can resist?! It's in the middle of July so that gives me something to stay in tip-top shape for after my vacation. I watched some videos and a lot of folks define "run" very loosely, so I'm also not particularly worried about keeping up or anything. I'm sure some people race it, but most seem to do it for the experience. I found out about it last fall and couldn't get it off my mind, so yesterday, sitting in the library waiting for everything to recharge, I got on my phone and registered, then started rallying the troops. So far, my daughter and one of my nieces are doing this one with me, but we're still working on the rest of the crew. It's women only, so DH will have to wait and cheer me on at the finish line...where he'll get a big, mud-covered hug! 

    I've already got my eye on the Disney 5k in January, LOL. 

    So, once I've gotten over this cold....I'll be off and running!

    Thinkin' about It Thursday

    This week, I'm thinking... 

    • That a true sign of love is my non-coffee-drinking husband driving to McDonald's at 6:30a to get me coffee when we're without power overnight
    • That it's hard to convince myself to climb out from under piles of quilts to start a day in a house with no power and with devices running out of charge
    • especially when I'm sick
    • and sicker now that I've slept in a cold house
    • So bag it, I'm taking another sick day
    • That having a sick day earlier this week and a 24-hour power outage all in the same week helped me finally get some embroidery done
    • How that's a silver lining to being down with a cold all week
    • and not getting in any of my 5k training sessions
    • or much of any other moving around for that matter
    • and how frustrating that feels
    • when I'd had such great momentum going
    • so poop on it all, anyway. 
    • That I really shouldn't complain, though
    • How, as colds go, this hasn't been a terrible one
    • That I can still breathe
    • That my occasional cough isn't keeping me awake at night
    • That my sore throat is manageable
    • so stop your whining already. Sheesh. 
    • That I probably won't have much to say for my Fight the Funk Friday post this week. (See all of the above.)

    (apologies for lack of formatting and indents on this post--can't do that fancy stuff on my iPad app which is all I have access to at the moment...)